"He Knows Me!"

Any of you who may have read any number of my other entries know that I am deeply touched by music. Music speaks to my heart. And, it carries great messages that often put into words what I have in my heart.

A lot of times what I am holding in my heart comes out and surprises me. A song is just the catalyst to add to the unknowns in my heart to end up with an unexpected response. For example, read the lyrics to the Fireflight song "Name".

Seven days old in the ICU tonight
Little baby boy, they don't wanna have to say goodbye
Your mother's on the phone, your father's in the hall
Praying God save his life

He sees you, He's near you
He knows your face, He knows your pain
He sees you and He loves you
He knows your name, He knows your name

Four doors down there's a man who just won't wake up
he crashed so hard and the doctors wanna pull the plug
Praying God'll just show up

He sees you, He's near you
He knows your face, He knows your pain
He sees you and He loves you
He knows your name, He knows your name

Maybe you're alone in the corner of an empty house
Or maybe you're the one no one notices in the crowd

He sees you, He's near you
He knows your face, He knows your pain
He sees you and He loves you
He knows your name, He knows your name
He knows your name
He knows your name

I found myself crying while driving down the road. That song hit me on so many different levels! The first hurt came right away.

My thoughts flew to my niece, Erynn, who died nearly 2 1/2 years ago. The hours that led up to her death sounded like they could have come out of this song. Then my thoughts went to our dear family friend "BJ" who died right after Erynn did. Again, the series of events leading to his death could have been lyrics in this song. H how I miss them both!

But then it hit me on a personal note. He sees me. He hears me. He knows my name. He knows my face, my pain. He is near to me through my day to day life and through the darkest moments of despair. Even if I feel alone or like my life is suddenly spiraling out of control, God is right there.

Through those dark days where I felt so helpless and lost, He was there. He guided people into our lives with words of wisdom and comfort. He gave my husband strength he never knew was possible. He gave me peace, calm, and reassurance.

He saw me and stayed with me. He knows my face and knew the pain that I was experiencing. He saw and loves me. He knows my name and held my hand through it all. He was as near as I would permit. All I had to do was ask.

I will never forget that pain. But perhaps more than the pain, I will never forget that He knows my name. "I am with your, Sarah." Audible words that showed that He knew what I was experiencing, He came to be by me and He knew my name and spoke it to bring me peace!